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I know I'm coming out of left field with this one, some of you know me well and know that suicide has haunted me in the past. A few times a year I get to a low point in my life and all my mind can focus on is ending myself. I wouldn't do it because I love my family and friends and wouldn't be so selfish, but when I do get to that point, all that seems irrelevant, all you can focus on is the low... it only lasts an hour or so, but its probably one of the worst feelings in the world. I saw a doc about it and they said I had a slight chemical imbalance in my brain that causes this and have me a pill to take for it... It seems to help out for the most part since this now happens less frequently, but it does still happen. I don't really do drugs or drink (with the exception of the occasional vicodin for back pain), but have found that the best thing to do when I do get to that point is to dose up on sleeping pills to re-occupy my mind. Somehow it helps ease the "depression" for some reason...
My question to my fellow gunnies is, if you experience anything like this and what you do to occupy your mind in times of turmoil? I hate alcohol and don't do drugs, like I said... any other alternatives short of group therapy (which is lame btw, for me at least).
Any help would be appreciated, you guys wouldn't wanna lose your head gunnie, would ya.
My question to my fellow gunnies is, if you experience anything like this and what you do to occupy your mind in times of turmoil? I hate alcohol and don't do drugs, like I said... any other alternatives short of group therapy (which is lame btw, for me at least).
Any help would be appreciated, you guys wouldn't wanna lose your head gunnie, would ya.